Thursday, June 29, 2006

New life ahead...

It's strange that i have finished my exams... senior ball coming up tomorrow ... and i'm going to europe for chamber choir tour on wednesday... holidays... wow... things are starting to be completely different for me. in a sense that i'm a graduated student from South Island school. DUring my exam period i had a really tough time .. felt like my life has been challenged and God has helped me through it. recently... God has been with me the whole time during my exams... believing in myself that my exam results will be fine .. able to get into the university i want to go to. I could've gone to Wales but sadly they don't have foundation degrees so i have to go to england which is more expensive to get education now... anyways God is good! - sorry gotta rush to kwai fong now!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Flight Worship

Last friday at Flight852 (youth group) I lead worship and I was really pumped up after praying together as a worship team. The set was solid and good. I Love God. So i was so excited i couldn't wait... but then... during worship i could sing most of the songs... I was out of pitch when singing and i realised that... so the back ups had to do most of the leading... which i felt like i wasn't doing my job properly.. trying to create a signal was hard for them to indicate where to go for each song... so yeah.. afterwards i felt I couldn't help the fact that i messed up some parts...
it bothered me a lot and made me stay up almost all night...

Then came saturday... Junk trip was cancelled... so watched a movie instead which was great. then hours later came 180 (adult group). after 180, went home.. and in my mind i was still thinking about me worship leader role... so i decided to record myself to see what my voice is like now... I discouraged myself... I felt like I didn't want to lead worship anymore or even sing for that matter... my pitch was out and i couldn't stand it... I can hear it so clearly when recorded by not by hearing by myself when i sing... I guess i lost a bit of faith. I never had a comment on my voice before... but just based on my performance...

God I'm sorry...

Saturday, June 10, 2006

wow i have to say i seem to have a lot of useless stuff like a few promotopnal comments and weird people on my chatterbox who i don't even know... so i may have to start updating this blog really soon and may abandon my xanga site... Ciao for now!