"World of Faith"

Flight Worship

Last friday at Flight852 (youth group) I lead worship and I was really pumped up after praying together as a worship team. The set was solid and good. I Love God. So i was so excited i couldn't wait... but then... during worship i could sing most of the songs... I was out of pitch when singing and i realised that... so the back ups had to do most of the leading... which i felt like i wasn't doing my job properly.. trying to create a signal was hard for them to indicate where to go for each song... so yeah.. afterwards i felt I couldn't help the fact that i messed up some parts...
it bothered me a lot and made me stay up almost all night...

Then came saturday... Junk trip was cancelled... so watched a movie instead which was great. then hours later came 180 (adult group). after 180, went home.. and in my mind i was still thinking about me worship leader role... so i decided to record myself to see what my voice is like now... I discouraged myself... I felt like I didn't want to lead worship anymore or even sing for that matter... my pitch was out and i couldn't stand it... I can hear it so clearly when recorded by not by hearing by myself when i sing... I guess i lost a bit of faith. I never had a comment on my voice before... but just based on my performance...

God I'm sorry...

posted by Kath @ Sunday, June 11, 2006